new month!
YESYESYESYESYESYESYESMOTHERFUCKERYES!!!!!!!
i've never been so excited to endure this time of the month :]


...gee...i wonder why...
so many "opinions" or w.e right now i cant seem to get them all out in clear sentences without, i'm sure, "offending" someone.
it all makes sense now.  it very sadly all makes sense...there the same thing.  the same people will be there over all...so why would one be looked at as a horrid thing to endure and the other one looked at as an exciting occurance?  it has nothing to do with the occurance itself, but what you'll be surrounded with.  it all makes sense. 
i feel guilty..but at the same time..no..i just feel guilty.  and alittle hurt...but thats my own doing.
i busted my ass to make sure it would all work out, and at the end of the day, it apparently wasnt really worth it...my excitement level has greatly decreased..but again, its my own doing.
i'm convinced this was karma.  my own actions have brought this upon me.
but hey, what can i do.
nothing.



really?!?!?! REALLY.  this is. RIDICULOUS.  i feel like no matter how much i tell you, how much i e-mail, or how much i give to you you still have NO IDEA, NONE, whats going on.  its like you hit "refresh" every monday morning and friday night...
i'm soo going to end up at texas state if you keep this up...ha...


soo...apparently novembers going to suck just as much as october...fantabulous.



NO nononononono no no NO.
i cannot. i cannot do it. anymore.
no. i cannot make that promise.